CHristmas ~~ Woohoo

today, 11th of december, my final has done...haha..really all the stress of academic gone. Really happy lo^^ Now, its already near to our performance for choir and dance at 18th, 19th and 24th. I want to dance and sing all the way to praise for god and celebrate jesus birth..wahahahaahha Christmas, i am coming..cant wait.. i really like christmas ^^ hehe... After that, its time for me to concentrate on my another performance which is organ and piano..cant wait. ^^ I want to perform the best to god and each of my friend..Jia you !! Jia hui, You can ~~~

12.10.10 Special day

Today, during our daily devotion, we talk many things.....

Then, at night, me and my family went to sushi king.....and i was surprise by many friend..first of all of course phoebe and fiona at sushi king working, while kathy work as part timer....then, i saw chun leng and eng kiat..I wave hand to him( Chun Leng), and he wave back..my heart suddenly pond so hard..dunno y...then i saw, kar wei..my primary school friend...Phooi Yee My secondary friend and another primary school friend sook ping...really surprise me....on the way second time to popular, i saw both of the boys again....and this time, C still the first one to see me and tell E....E is finding me and he wave his hands towards me when i wave to him and he even smile....wow....its already 3 years since we all seperate, really happy to meet them...but, one thing i really not sure is, how come my heart still pounding hard when i saw C....

10.10.10

Today went to dinner...very happy ^^

Just feel that, i really should thank god, though i am really in confuse but, one thing i know is hold to god tightly...assignment due date already near, test is on the way, will have performance in electronic organ and piano, need to practice tambourine at the same time..same as choir....hahahaha..really thank god that give me ability to multitasking, still it is the things i need to learn and it will need a long long time.. ^^ Its good to have all this things to test me once a while...have to learn to accept and hold tight to god..seems like these day, i start to have more far from god... >.< i have no idea on it from when it start but, just once in a while i will have these kind of feeling........

Zong da, are going to penang for training already...on 16.10.10... prAY for him to have smooth training process and of course dont forget god.... ^^

That's all. And we all also celebrated rev khor siak hu birthday with give him a surprise ^^ its nice to have him to be in our church..^^ his birthday is on 13.10.....

5.9.10 sunday sunny day ^^

I got my new laptop..yaya >.<>.< just a reminder to myself...and i will always remember the date i bought the laptop...^^

she went ~~ surprisingly i didn't cry..maybe i know that she will be back and before she went, we already enjoy many precious moment together and there is no more regret for us. Chi, now you are really alone and though you have friends at there. But, there is no SCMC friend's there. Be really take a great care of yourself and work really hard to proove that you can. I will also concentrate on my study from now on. Until the day we meet together again, we can share the joy and gather again. I will wait for you to go together to KOREA where you, me and Bing see are crazy about. There will be one day. I believe this will be not just a dream but reality and we can enjoy then ^^ Lastly, the words i really want to tell you is... DONT EAT TOOO MUCH OF SPICY THINGSSSSSSS AND GET YOUR LIVER PROBLEM !!!! OK? Promise me...I really will miss you and last word before a start another post nxt time, I LOVE YOU ...Sincerely ^^ Dont forget me and all the friends here. Whenever you need prayer, asked from us. We will help you.^^ Bye ^^

Back to blog again ^^ Its already in the last week of year 2 sem 1. Enjoying with the junior and also senior. Tomolo will have big party, dominoes and many things to eat. On the other hands, accurately one more month, i have to send someone go..gonna miss her..Dun forget to come and see the blog and i will update whatever things happen here. We had make many sweet memories in this short while. Hope you can bring it with you ^^

My future ....~ Music vs Education

Nowaday, especially today, i have a really strong feeling on changing my course... feel like want to escape from it and turn into the things i really like to do... Y? Y suddenly i have this thought? What my feeling towards music is sooooo strong until i just get stress from music..Not even the course i am studying now!!! I am confusing now!!! totally!! Should i just end up this things i am done? But, how i want to tell my parents? Will they be angry or support me to go for it? i really hope i could go into the music field, though i still blurring about my future, but i hav thought to become an orchestra conductor, or a singer, or a performer and with base on god... What i should do now? I Love MuSiC. I like listen to song, i like to sing, i like to play, i have deep interest in everything related to music, the shirt with notes, or piano...what i should really do? God, I know if i keep think like this, i will dunno what to do...now, i want to hand it to you..Please god, Show me what should i do now? is it the assignment, that make me feel tension, or i really love music, or i am lazy? Music, Early childhood education??? I really want to make many song to serve god...can i cope with it? I really hope i can...

I really want to fly to the sky ady...happy until...1st time for after 8 year...we talk again, although is not face to face...it already is a big enough for me >.< I though that he will ignore me..but seems like i make a wrong guess... *cry happily* He reply my message, and even CHAT !!!! It really suddenly change to a very sweet memory...hope it will last from now until forever! For 8 years, although i have change, for my personalities, my characteristics, still there are some big big black mark in my heart, although i not yet ask or tell him about what had really happen to me since that very moment, but it can be consider as a good start to build the friendship again * blast in big drop of tears* It really is a joy to me. The moment i open the chat box, i was really scare that he will ignore it, It was the opposite!! when we start to chat, my heart is like start to putting down a big stone slowly and it start to crash little by little... although it just go on for a while.. But i would like to say a big: THANK YOU..which still accept me as your friend *guessing* REally a bunch of thankful with tears for you.. Although, you have gave me a totally bad memory for my standard 6 life.. still, because of that, i begin to stand up year by year and now i am who i am now... Suddenly think of god, 'god, it really is a miracle, i cant imagine we will welcome this day..it really surprise me.. THe first time ever since then, i feel happy until having tears in my eyes, it really had nearly crashed down all my bad memory for the past 8 years, god, you really is the one who always love me and thank god that give me this opportunity to talk to him again.. Although i still not confirm what will happen in future, but this friendship i really will keep it forever and always appreciate it...there is a little wishes i would like to make at here, and may god bless me , i really hope that, one day, i could share gospel to him and he will accept it and together, we will be your son and daughter and serve you until the end of our lives ^^

Today, Sunday, 9 May, its our mother day and our church is celebrate 'shuang qin jie'...i really tearing like a river..and it cant stop ...luckily i was able to stop it as the service start as i am the pianist... i dun want to cry as they sing a very happy song...so....But, it really makes me suffer a lot..I'm wondering that, y cant the people take serious with his own job and if someone can help, he should be appreciate that he was helped but it make me waited like a stupid in church for about an hour... Everytime when the same thing happen the only words can come out from the mouth of his is only sorry...does it mean that a sorry can make up everything start again? NO! and definitely NO!! it not just this people, shall i say that all you church youth member really like to be late on gathering or whatever circumstances... i really dunno what to say..is it time is not important or, they put god in the last place in their mind? i am wondering.. Although i had a hard time at the beginning of the day, but then, from there, immediately, i get comfort from many people and it had helped me to regain my energy and strength to do anything which waited me to done it. God also let me see that i am not the one which is keeping fighting with all the things to be done and there are many people which support me silently...Church is really a great place for me and i enjoy it very much... From there, i also found a friend like pastor which already saw my different kind of expression >.< and i really hope that he will keep staying in my church, but then, if he really need to go, thats the time i need to hold myself up with God strength and keep on to serve god and people and of course with all the member in church.
TO end my today blog, The only words i would like to say is : 'Thank You!!' To whoever comfort me, give me advice and the one which create the problem and make mess for my morning because maybe this is the things which god want me to learn :' PATIENT'!! aND Happy Mother's day^^