Sunday, April 29, 2012

Its been a long time since i enter the last blog. On 11th of September 2011, I've begin my journey to another country which i never been to. England. After experience all the nervous in process of waiting to get approve and done in order to preserve my qualification to there, finally, i was able to board on the plane. Since i am rushing throughout the customs, i did not have much time to really say a proper goodbye to my family members. (Perhaps its better, it prevents crying or actually i keep the feeling deep inside my heart? I really have no idea) But, i did hug my dad the moment before i go to customs. (The only things that i remember the most when it is the first time that he hugs me so tight after i have grown up) Everything seems to changes. I am now consider as independent and could not depend on my parents anymore. Only me, my cousin and a friends. I AM GOING TO EXPLORE THE NEW WORLD OUTSIDE.Throughout the journey, i was looking out through the windows of the plane, from night to day. The transit in Dubai international airport is also a part of new experience. When we leave there, i even saw the prominent building and the oil palm shape island which is still under construction. Everythings seems to be very exciting for me. The thought of leaving my home country, being independent, away from church members, leaving behind some scars, and going to leading a new life and grow more stronger and concentrate on studies keep going in my mind when the plane is in the process of circulate on the sky and prepare to landing on the land i am going to stay.


  The moment i get down from the plane, we are rushing to get our things done. Fill in the form to prove we are student and is here for studying, checking out luggage, waiting for the bus to fetch us from airport.(The airport is quite old though.)


  The time just flies by, from induction week in university, visiting our campus, moving into halls where i will stay for the term, visiting to different state and places around (which is very nice), started class where everybody is foreigner except four of us, settling with the education system here (where we need to cite our works to proove the validity, and everything is writing, writng and writing[Which i hated]) went through tears and happy,celebrating festivals without family members around for the first time, experience the life without car, celebrating friends birthday, knowing new friends, being hurt by friends, facing the problems all by myself, cooking, buying groceries, a routine that i've never done regularly before, and also experience music again through a university music conductor in an individual teaching which at the same times had help me and encourage me and give me strength and its going towards the end of a year of studies in here.


  Due to the hurting from friends, some unconsiderate neighbour who plays music with no mercy (at least is sorted now through time arrangement and communication), i could not finish some of the assignment which has been due in previous month. It really makes me really hurt and could not concentrate. The mind of giving up has been continuously floated out from my mind, the feeling of not going out to see anyone are also there. But, in the middle of all the mess, i was blessed by god through strength that he provided and the angels who he assign to support me including Doctor, helpzone assistant, and my lovely tutor which always penetrate positive thinking and mind in my brain which will at least help in the strength to move on with it. Now, i am in the midst of processing one of my delayed assignment which are going to due in tomorrow after the extension. and its already 10.09 pm!!! I am going to crazy! (It maybe also due to some components of laziness and the feeling of not to do it, with have wasting two days in finishing a 16 episode drama without sleeping at night [POSEIDON ^^]. I am now kind of regretting of wasting the time at there. T.T Although i am sort of happy with the movie ending and feeling satisfy >.<.  Am now going to shower and then continues with my work and not gonna able to sleep for the third night which is the consequences of own choice.


  Two days to go to enter a new months. ( Where my birthday was at that month \^O^/ with all the assignments need to be done within T.T) With knowing that, i need to work hard and hope i can continue my faith in god and keep up the habits of reading god's words everyday before i started everything for the day and pray hard, worked hard with not forget some free times ( Hope does not gone too overboard which again will influence the progress of my assignment >.< ) I CAN. GOD IS THERE IN HELPING. WORK HARD. USE IT AS A GLORY TO THE GOD WHETHER IS NOW OR IN THE FUTURE CARRIERS!!!! AZA AZA HWAITING. ^^


(P/S : Uri Joon Soo are handsome ^^ His singing is brilliant !!! MOZART!! I AM, I AM MUSIC !!!!!KYAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!...........@.@ Fainted for him ^^ keep it up)


Going now!!!!! if staying at here i am not able to finish my work, have to meet with tutor tomorrow!! GOGO!!! Bye ^^ See you another time ^^