the 2nd day of caroling

something happen to me during the caroling session in 24th december.We went to a house where located at 17th floor.. compare to wait for the list, i prefer to climb the stairs..as i had a long time didnt go for jogging long time and i run up the stairs..once i reach there, my first feeling was very tired, i can feel my heartbeat was very fast... As we sang along into her house, i started to feel dizzy and i kept singing with standing. starting from 2nd song, i started feel really dizzy and difficult in breath and i stop singing and i started loses balance and although my eyes was open, but my vision start to blur and finally everything is black and i am unbalance for now and the only thing i can do is faint. Before i fell, i heard a small voices( the voices was small and it become blur when my eyesight also blur) and i know is mom who take me to sofa to rest and it make me feel a little bit sorry for the host as i am the guest and still in caroling. Then, pastor give me a kind of medicine for dizzy to hold on and it works very well and it make me recover fast.Really thanks for their help although after that still have a little bit unbalance and dizzy. Through this incident, i also realize that many of them really take care of me and they kept asking me whether i am ok or not.. really thx to them, such as shi qing, michelle, ying qian, and many of them. And when i open my eyes again, i saw a person sitting in front of me and although he didnt ask or talk to me, but it really comfort me and encourage me to be ok. Then, we continue to caroling in few more house and at last, we went to choir teacher's house and its fun at there^^ WE countdown at there and we play and i ate two bowl of food...haha^^ As the caroling end, it means that christmas is here and through it i learn many things and think more.

A n after christmas night^^

Today is my younger brother's birthday.. didnt celebrate..^^ But there was a fun things happen during night... i went to friends house for party and my youngest brother calls and said that our home had no light...the whole street, the whole area..When i went back at 10 something, it continuously no light and it was complete dark in whole area. After reach home, i realize that nobody was at home then, i know that they are back from dinner near our house...we START to light up the house by using the fore and the candle..although its not the first time we are having this kind of circumstances, but it is the first time without parents and i felt a little bit scare..then i use the candle to light up the place where i need to go.. after settle, and all the bed was at downstairs ,at 11.11pm.. the light came and we have to move back all the things back to upstairs the poorest things is my two younger brother..they just took the heavy bed down and need to move up again ..haha.. during the time in dark, i feel afraid and unsecured and realize that how important is the light..and i also thought of some of the things i heard that we as a christian resembles the light of the world and we need to bring the light to the non-christians.. and i can understand a little bit the world of the non-believers is that dark and its sometimes full with scare and it doesnt had any good feel in there...
seems like the words stop at there..haha...cause thats the only thing i thought of in the short period of time...
Now is already late in the night. its time to bed..Bye and see you next time^^

A view on whole year

Especially want to thanks someone...
and i have done few first time with him..
1) there is first time in my life when i cannot sleep at night and feel scare, i called him. He comfort me.
2) I fought with mother...father scold me....then i went to church and pray..then i find him
again. He accompany me by my side then he tell me his own experience me and give me
advice and tell me to practice to be patience start from 3 minutes...
3) In christmas, he share the words and it make me stunned and it makes me thinks more deeply and realize that i have a complete family from young and i am more lucky then him...

It makes me really THANKS to him... and its like an angel that gods sent to stand beside me and allways remind me to back to god whatever happened. I really cant imagine when one day he left what will be my reaction and my expression to send him away...its the first time i took the steps to ask for help and thanks god i found the right person.. i know that he will probably not see this message..But its truly from my heart...

Finally,the only words i would like to say is " THANK YOU^^" to my pastor in charge in this year( MT)... i dunno there will be how many first time i will face and ask for your help but...the finest things i would like to say is only THANK YOU